On one of beautiful late morning of Sundays, I was reading one of Locke & Key issues which was published by IDW Comic. Locke & Key was one of best horror comic stories! I was flipping through issue of Locke & Key as my wife Sunflower was driving in deep forest somewhere on base of Fort Bragg in North Carolina.
Something caught my attention, I shouted to myself, “That’s it”
Sunflower was giving me kind of “huh” facial expression!
“Perfect for me to do blogging on that one!”
I scanned perfect picture of what I am seeing:
Does it rings me? You betcha!
Does it ring you also?
You need to ask YOURSELF! I have PLENTY of stories to tell you about how HIDEOUS man I am! I am MAN with too many secrets! I always found a way to hid the bottle of rum, it is my self-medicating for my unbearable pain! Looking at this picture above brought back painful memories where someone whom have been once dearly to me found my behavior very erratic.
Wanted to know one of my darkest secrets? I stole PLENTY of money from those people even strangers so I can use their money to feed my addiction by making numerous trip to liquor store and get supersize bottle of rum. Yes I am very sickening man! I managed to manipulate those people who have been dearly to give me money or even let me manage their money. I even deceived someone who have been dearly to me for many years that I will take care of grocery shopping but I managed to find a way to get cash back after paying groceries, so I can use those cash to get bottle of rum!
Another sickening thing I can share when there was big party at ballroom in honoring my old family friends. I managed to sneaked into coat room and checked for cashes in their coats and jackets. I raked in many dollars. What did I do with it, GET darn bottle of rum!
I was HOPELESS man and I managed to hid a lot of those bottles of rum everywhere in my apartment when I used to live in Boston area.
Picture above remind me of unexplainable grace of God who found a way in my life and pulled me away by stripped everything have been meaningful in my life. My sickening behavior was brought to light.
No wonder Jesus was very clear about sinful behavior will be brought to light as he said:
For all that is secret will eventually be brought into the open, and everything that is concealed will be brought to light and made known to all.~Luke 8:17 (NLT)
Make sense? I recall when being alcoholic addict, I always came up with many fable stories in order to make an excuse for my immersion into alcoholism and also I keep saying to myself and others:
“I do not have any problem with drinking and I am not alcoholic addict! SO NOT ME! Look at me, I managed to go work and do things fine.”
I was deceiving myself and little I did realized those people who are around me KNEW my well-being appearance are seriously deteriorating! It is because I let booze WRECKED who I am. I lost myself, and engaged myself into false fantasies and denied the reality!
Jesus was very clear about what he said in Luke 8:17. Also King David mentioned about hiding sinful deeds which is like cancer to the soul in eyes of God, it is sapping the strength of spiritual growth as he mentioned it in book of Psalms.
I can relate much to an Apostle Paul as he said:
I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength to do his work. He considered me trustworthy and appointed me to serve him, even though I used to blaspheme the name of Christ. In my insolence, I persecuted his people. But God had mercy on me because I did it in ignorance and unbelief. Oh, how generous and gracious our Lord was! He filled me with the faith and love that come from Christ Jesus. This is a trustworthy saying, and everyone should accept it: “Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners”—and I am the worst of them all. But God had mercy on me so that Christ Jesus could use me as a prime example of his great patience with even the worst sinners. Then others will realize that they, too, can believe in him and receive eternal life. All honor and glory to God forever and ever! He is the eternal King, the unseen one who never dies; he alone is God. Amen. ~ 1 Timothy 1:12-17 (NLT)
Yes, I destroyed those people who loves me and used them to feed my addiction until Jesus walked into my life once again on 12/3/12 when I looked at bottle of rum and said ENOUGH IS ENOUGH and time to do something with my life.
Jesus and I have been walking even since….
No matter how hopeless situation you are in…there is still a HOPE in Jesus!